another old records from jj

 "ok.computer."(c) There is one of my favorite day in the year - 1st september because of one reason. New books in library I was giving in school and an in university back then. Yes, "ok.computer."(c), I'm bookworm. Please take it as coming out. I don't care about age, I don't care about gender ( identification, perception), DNA ( nationality, ethnicity), political preferences, religios traditions, favorite music/food/books/cars/styles/movies/etc..... Please don't take me wrong. Whatever you have to share with me or to say me, I've read a lot of books and I've learned that I know nothing - I'm aware of my ignorance and the scale of it - I know that there are much more books which I've not chance to touch.

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another old record from jj

 Hello houston. We have a problem.

Ok. Computer. Do you know how much we are fcuk’ed, doomed, cursed ? [as human species ] ?
Please only positive, optimistic, constructive, action itemable, actionable. Like I’m 5 years old.

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another old record from jj

 ok. computer. how big is the bull trend on the darknet market for criminal organ transplantation after “hot mic”/ prime time advertising by key characters on the September 2025 China Victory Day Parade ? How to estimate the demand/growth on job market darknet surgery specialist ?

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another old record from jj

 ok.computer. Engineers are not aware of the history lesson on corruption.

I was born in USSR, in the environment with hidden assumption that politics is most dirties thing ever.
I’ve decided to study programming because people are doing it, politics everywhere all the time. I would prefer to work with machines and logic.
After 20 years of programming and 11 after relocation to US I’ve got it.
The human mind and consciousness is vulnerable.
It is unstable as nuclear reaction on power plant and corrupted minds blow.
Yes. USSR environment has gave me assumption that corruption is mostly about economy. Naturally this is part of narrative that money is the source of all evil.
I was not aware that this idea was proposed for discussion by Socrates ( Plato ). As one of many others to illustrate the vulnerability of the human mind and disastrous consequences. And “blow up”, corruption of one human mind will corrupt many others.
This is even not about psychology or compromised “software”-layer of beliefs, memories and someone’s knowledge.
This is about hardware corruption - neuroscience of anxiety, depression through fear, terror and violence. OCD, PTSD, ADHD, etc.
One simple illustration - absolute power destroys the consciousness. That is why no one should be exposed to this threat without redundancy and other precautions.
Yes. For sure this is advertising of books: “Res publica” (public affair) Cicero Plato is 101 on “why human kind is doomed”.
One of the fresh ones: “Breakneck: China's Quest to Engineer the Future” with the thesis that "America is run by lawyers, and China is run by engineers”.
Another is “Autocracy, Inc.: The Dictators Who Want to Run the World ”.
Darknet, shadow globalized criminal economy with dark wall street and dark venture funds and 10bln $ investments seeds/rounds ( 10k of lives).
Human trafficking and illegal organ transplantation. Dark startups to build armies of suicide zombies / kamikaze a-la joe’s army from mad max driven by narcotics, depression, religion, loan, health conditions, etc.

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old record from jj

 Pushkin, Gogol, Dostoevsky, Tolstoy—they all fought this "beast" (the system, the corrupt government wielding absolute power).

Unsuccessfully.
To lose this battle means to become a tool of this "beast" system. You obey, submit and serve.
First, they were not aware of scale - this is 2.5k years history and attempts to invent without using previous blood, pain, failures does not leave you a chance.
Second, they thought it is about system of government, about politics. The scale is much bigger.
And the failure of those people can give you idea - they were not fighting for the country, for the nation, for the people, for someone else.
This is the fight for the own identity ( the soul in old-school religious terms ), there is no art, no creativity without identity if you have lost smallest piece of your identity, your mind, integrity, if the smallest piece of yourself "I" became corrupted.

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 Every morning I’m asking myself the question: “Am I still myself?”

Of course not really. But I’m incorporating this as part of my “boot loader”, morning routine. Not really, real in a sort of way.
Routine. Pretty expensive one.
Ok. Computer. Yes. Practical tactical goal is to wake up.
Yoga. Balance. Static. Core. To the 35 breath cycles in a minute. Burpees. Trampoline. Jogging.
Ignition. Cognition. “Have I gone mad?”
And “what are you getting back ?”, that was the question my friend has asked after hearing this nonsense. Short answer is “This question is very relevant, but is not exact correct” the question “Am I myself?” Is not so vulgar as question about madness. Consciousness is broken in way most of the time. By design.
He is sharing with me “you are you, for sure, all the time”.
But that really depends what I’m thinking am I. What is my self-identity. If I do recognize myself as an animal for 99.999% then yes. For sure. I don’t have reasons to bother myself by such inquiries. Eat, sleep, reproductive access - a lot of things to be busy with. But I do have my morning routine - inquire to wake up - because I do have an idea what am I.
I think that [human] consciousness is kind of crypto container like ark or vault with negative knowledge volume powered by complex machinery like a search engine or search of sense or search of pattern or search of trend all together with auto encryption implemented on hardware and software layers. that is why human is animal ( encrypted ) systems. With main feature to detect corruption/being compromised/ infiltrated. Search is a kind of secondary function. But important part of this crypto container that the encryption is implemented by network of other containers ( outside). For initial bootstrap at least two uniq crypto containers are required. And yes. By the way, the uniq identity ( uncompromised and uncorrupted) is what is socalled the “soul” the marker of uniq identity and uncompromised.
And yes. This thing - consciousness as crypto container is very complex dynamical thing - unstable and it is stable only because of dynamic balance. If compromised, it is almost impossible to maintain balanced dynamic and it will basically blow up with energy release.
Ok. Computer. This is unstable, very high energy density crypto container with blow up feature and search. And now you are asking me why should I bother myself with this yoga-shmoga-balance-discipline-mantra-shmantra-pseudo-science-juju ?
Because I do have somewhat of zero or maybe little bit less of trust.
I mean I have trust that this is a small part of real picture and small part of real complexity. This most likely crypto container with dynamic balance is actually the dynamic balance of set of crypto containers and with complex trajectories more then 3 bodies movement problem. Balance is illusional analogy, misleading one in a sense.

A mother is she who can take the place of all others but whose place no one else can take.
veritas et mesirecodia

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random dream number xyz

 Ко мне во сне пришла пожилая женщина и украла тапочки , бутылку воды и телефон. Сложила в мешок и пошла на пляже

Я догнал и говорю «отдавай».

Она отнекивается . И я на второй телефон ее записываю . Но отвлекаюсь и она видимо подменяет мешки пока я отвлекся. И говорит хорошо . Вот . Вываливает все из своего мешка на стол. Там много всего , но моих вещей нет

An elderly woman came to me in a dream and stole my slippers, a bottle of water, and my phone. She put them in a bag and walked off. [this was on] the beach.

I caught up with her and said, "Give it back."

She denies it. I record her on my second phone. But I get distracted, and she apparently switches the bags while I'm distracted. And she says, "Okay." She dumps everything out of her bag onto the table. There's a lot in there, but my things aren't there.